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THROUGH MY EYES
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Dedication
To Brookings/Harbor students who have
been injured, abused, violated or have
died in alcohol related incidents.

Preface

Anonymous 1
Jonathan Van Derschaaf
Kinder Sands
Chase Ransomer
Anonymous 5
Anonymous 6
Anonymous 7
Anonymous 8
Anonymous 9
Anonymous 10
Anonymous 11
Anonymous 12
Kevin Bachler
Anonymous 14
Anonymous 15
Anonymous 16
Mitch Pruden
Marla Green
Anonymous 19
Heather Hunter
Anonymous 21
Anonymous 22
Anonymous 23
R. J. Sims
Anonymous 25

Acknowledgments

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Anonymous 1
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Alcohol can lead to many different things. Most of the time, it leads to regrets and bad decisions. There is so much to risk when alcohol is abused, meaning drinking to get "waster".

Most of the drinking is brought on by peers.

One major thing alcohol affects is family. Often families have at least one alcoholic in their line of family. It causes great harm and discomfort to be constantly in that situation. Families struggle everyday with alcohol related issues.

Everyday someone dies from an alcohol related crash. These are mostly caused by drunk drivers. The sad part is that usually the drunk driver is the one who lives. I am going to say it is not worth all the "could happens".

This past summer, my friend and I were at my house. We were just hanging out watching TV when we heard a knock on my window. I opened my blinds to look outside when I saw two of my guy friends in the bushes. One had a huge bottle of Jack Daniel's in their hand and they were both completely drunk. I yelled at them to go away so I would not get in trouble. My friend and I decided to go down the hall and wait till they left. About five minutes after both of them came walking down my hallway. They had climbed through my bathroom window uninvited. I brought them back to my room and tried to convince them to leave and go sleep in their truck. I made a mistake by not waking up my parents. I thought I could deal with it myself. I found out that I was wrong when one of the guys got in his truck. Me and my friend took the other guy in our car and followed him down the river road. He sped up so fast we lost sight of him until all we saw were bright orange sparks that had flown from his truck. He had fallen asleep at the wheel and flipped over the bank into the cow pasture upside down. He had totaled his truck. We all panicked and jumped out of the car. To our surprise he was alive with no major injuries. He had gotten very lucky. He is now facing DUI charges and will be in court in a couple of months.

Teen drinking is very common in this town. There are many parties happening every weekend. I think two of the main reasons for teen drinking in this town are rebellion and boredom. It is very easy to choose a party with friends vs. staying at home and being bored. A lot of the time people go not thinking they will drink and peers convince them to. Every morning-after they wish they hadn't. Alcohol isn't worth it.

 

 

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Jonathan Van Derschaaf
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Alcohol is evil. It ruins lives and should be illegal. For some reason, which I can't comprehend, people like it. Even though it gives you a beer-belly and completely devastates your liver, people still drink it. People even tell me that it tastes bad! Why drink something that tastes bad and is unhealthy for you. I will never get that concept.

I live with my mom and neither of us drink. But I most my dad because of alcohol. Before I was born my dad used to drink, and abuse my mom. He used to yell and say harmful things to my brother and sister. It continued to happen until I was born. I was pretty little so I don't remember most of it. I do remember my brother being really scared one night and telling me to hide under the bed. While I was hiding I heard some yelling, but I still don't know what truly happened. When I was in kindergarten my dad moved to California, to a rehab center, and my mom divorced him.

My dad was a good guy, I'm told, but when he used alcohol he became a violent man. We moved often because he couldn't keep a job. My brother and sister had to change schools almost every year. My dad also tried to kill himself many times. He almost succeeded. He took a whole bottle of his antidepressant pills and washed it down with alcohol. But he survived. When I was told that story I was very disappointed. It showed me know weak a man he really was. He was very sad inside and tried to fix it with alcohol use. The alcohol turned his sadness and depression into rage that he took out on his own family.

I'm thankful my mom had the strength and courage to take alcohol out of our house. I have witnessed the effects of alcohol on the people you love and, because of that, will never accept it. I'm the lucky one in my family. I never had to truly deal with the wrath of that monster, who claimed be was my father. I have no Earthbound father. My only father is God.

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Kinder Sands
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I don't have a sad experience or a heart wrenching story of my own or any personal experience I've had or encountered involving alcohol to tell you. But I can't say that sometime in my life I won't. I won't ever say, "That won't ever happen to me."

I can tell you that, if not all, probably most people who have had a traumatic experience involving alcohol have said "That won't happen to me." But it very well did and that could be me or you. I know I won't ever drink irresponsibly, but who's to say someone I am close to with or know won't? And even if I or anyone I love don't drink, it's still possible for alcohol to affect me. Everyday people drink and drive. On average 500 people are given DUIs in American per day. That is 500 'accidents' waiting to occur every day.

When I was eight years old, I decided I wouldn't ever drink. I was on vacation at a camping resort up the McKenzie River located near Eugene, Oregon. Along the river is a highway. There are many houses on and near the road. Among those houses was a family of four in a pretty blue house. The seven years old daughter knew as far as she could go in her yard before it was too close to the road. She would be a junior today attending Thurston High School with her big brother who is now a senior. Every day they think of their baby girl, his baby sister, their granddaughters, or his/her child friend and wonder how someone could be so irresponsible. "I thought she was a small trash can," was the man's excuse for hitting the seven year old blonde little girl playing with her Barbies in her own front yard. He was driving drunk and hit the small child at 48 miles per hour. Her body wasn't displayed at her own funeral because it was in separate pieces.

Ten years later, I am still sticking to my word. I won't drink alcohol. I don't see the point in it. If you need to be drunk to have good times then that's sad. Why drink something hurting your liver and feeding your body calories that cost too much when you have plenty other refreshing drinks available? I just think it's a waste, even if you are drinking responsibly.

I am very thankful to not have any personal stories involving alcohol. Sometime in my life that might change, but for now I'll do what I can to prevent the possible and if it does happen to me at least I was smart and said "That could happen to me."

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Chase Ransomer
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Peer Pressure

Alcohol has not affected my life in many ways. Not because I haven't been pressured but because I have said "No!" Peer pressure is a major cause of why most teens drink. I have resisted alcohol because of my morals and beliefs, setting good examples for younger kids, and my athletic desires.

I have chosen to stay alcohol free because I don't want to live life under the influence of anything besides myself. Alcohol impairs your judgment and is the highest rating for car accidents. My morals and beliefs have taught me to make good decisions. Alcohol is illegal until 21 years of age and it's a misdemeanor if you get caught carrying it. You also receive an MIP and get your license revoked for a year.

Young kids and other fellow high schoolers in our community don't always get good examples set for them. I make it a point to always lead by example. Kids see bad examples set for them every day by their parents, siblings, or friends. I want to be a positive example that when kids aren't sure what to do that they can always have something to look back on. Don't give excuses, take responsibility for your actions and make the right choice.

My number one desire in life is to play Division 1 basketball. By using alcohol and giving into peer pressure I hurt my team and let them down. I want to stay eligible and work hard every day so I can always perform at my best. Alcohol not only hurts your performance but it also hurts your future. Coaches in college want a good, well-rounded kid that does not have alcohol related issues off the court. Issues with alcohol off the court takes away your focus when you are on the court. The best way to avoid alcohol is to not put yourself in bad situations. Stay away from parties, even if you think you're not going to drink! That's when the pressure starts, and if you can't handle the heat then stay out of the kitchen.

Peer pressure is a major cause of why a lot of teens drink. Next time you get pressured think about your morals, goals and the fact that alcohol is illegal. Keep yourself away from bad situations and just say "No!"

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Anonymous 5
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 My take on alcohol

Alcohol has been used by people close to me my whole life, but it hasn't ever impacted my life in a bad way. My parents always drink on occasions or every now and then, but they never overdo it to where it is a bad thing. They go to get-togethers with family and friends drinking for a good time. My older brother drinks in college but still manages to be the same person socially and in the classroom. All the people around me just happen to be smart about their drinking - though most people would say drinking in the first place isn't very smart.

I don't think much about people drinking unless I see them overdo it and something bad happens, which is on a rare occasion. There are parties all the time where kids my age get trashed and never get caught. For myself, I have never consumed alcohol illegally and I don't plan on ever doing it. But by being at these places I sometimes get pressured to try it. Talking my way against doing it has never been a problem and everyone is usually pretty cool about it when I deny them the beverage. I also don't really put myself in situations to where there is major alcohol consumption and parties. But when people ask why I don't drink, I tell them that I don't really have anything against it and that I just have something else I have to do later like practice or work; and that they can do whatever they life.

Most of the time people around me don't drink at times for the fear of getting into trouble with the authorities. I don't have this fear because getting away with drinking really isn't hard for me at all. I could access it through many people and places but I choose not to. Like most parents, mine let me try it under their supervision at home, but I still decide to refuse it.

So I guess I don't really have any sob story to tell on how alcohol has affected my life but I can say one things for a lot of the people that claim they do. A lot of the time it is their own choice to drink that messes them up in the long run. Most people I hear about know the consequences of drinking and still complain when something bad happens. All I can say is that if I ever do decide to drink, I will do so knowing the consequences of what can happen in the situation and will accept what happens as my fault.

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Anonymous 6
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Let me tell you a story about a fairly that was virtually destroyed by alcohol. I will not divulge whether is my family, or another. I have seen things no one should have to. The effects of alcohol on this family were devastating. I have witnessed fights with father against son. I have witnessed screaming matches, where punches were thrown. I have seen alcohol tear people apart, cause devastation, and in the end,death.

In the beginning, this family was perfect. The mom, Julie, was always fun, and the dad, Nick, was a good father figure. Their oldest, Chris, was a nearly grown man, and was turning into a very good person. Their youngest, Jaime, was a good girl who never got in trouble at school (she was in 6th grade). This family had put up a front. The same kind many people put up to hide their secret pain. Day by day, incident by incident, this family got worse. It started slow, Julie and Nick would fight, or Jaime would just disappear. Slowly, it got bigger, Nick would fight with Chris, grab him by the throat and tell him he was worthless, and Chris would wander the streets until two A.M. wondering where he would sleep that night.

Julie was an alcoholic; she got drunk every night of the week. Nick didn't drink very often, but when he did, he got mean. Chris and Jaime had different ways of dealing with this. Chris would try to help, playing the role of marriage counselor most of the time. He would try to protect Jaime from all the fighting and screaming, but he couldn't be there all the time. Jaime would disappear for hours, or even days at a time. She would go partying with her friends, drinking, doing drugs, and having sex. She was spinning out of control fast, because there was no one there to guide her.

I will never forget that devastating night in June, the breaking point. Julie and Nick had been out to a bar all night. When they got home, the house was instantly filled with yelling. By the time Chris got downstairs, Nick had Julie on the ground, choking her. It was apparent they were both drunk. Chris threw Nick off of her, turning the heat to him. Next thing I knew, Nick was strangling Chris and Chris couldn't get away. Julie was screaming for them to stop. I was frozen. I had no idea what to do. Julie called the police. When they got there, everyone was interviewed, and Nick went to jail. When he got out, Julie wasn't there. He killed himself less than a month later.

This family was devastated, and destroyed by alcohol. Before this, I had no idea what alcohol could do. In memory Nick, I ask all of you - stop drinking now, while your family is still whole. Your drinking could be affecting your family more than you know. Just don't do it.

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Anonymous 7
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 Two Sides

Alcohol is a simple 7 letter word which effects many people's daily lives. In the dictionary alcohol is classified as "A distilled fruit," but to the eyes of a teen, a wife, a husband, a child, a spouse, alcohol is escape, addiction, abuse, molestation, rape, death. Though I have never been beaten, never been molested, never got the worst of an alcoholic family, I still got impacted greatly.

As a child I saw alcohol as just a beverage mommy and daddy liked. But as I grew older, I realized that it was the transformation from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde. I would come home to find my mom wasted on the couch, and therefore escape to my room. I never got the glory of being a child. The park, going on walks, mom and daughter time was out of the picture. When I played sports in grade school my mom and step dad did happen to come to maybe 3 or 4 of my games, of course with that big orange cup filled with their addiction. Maybe if I was lucky I wouldn't have to see them get into a huge fight and leave.

Not only is my family involved in a great deal of alcohol, so many of my friends revolve their life around it. I helped my best friend overcome her drinking problem. Four times a week she would drink, I showed her that she didn't need alcohol to have fun, nor did she need it to rid herself of stress, and all the down falls of life. She has now been sober for a year.

Of course being in high school I have had the chances to drink, and people have tried to peer pressure me. I have always been a strong willed and good kid, and I think growing up around alcohol really made me know that I didn't want to grow up to be an alcoholic like my mom and dad. Seeing firsthand what alcohol actually does to your mind and body gave me strength to easily say no. Being underage and drinking has no good outcome; you can lose your license, lose your friends, lose your money, and even lose your life. Why risk the things that mean the most to you? To a pair of sober eyes you see so much more than just a good time. The feeling is indescribable'; abandoned, hurt, lost, all describe the way it feels growing up in an alcoholic family. Experiencing the things I had to experience made me know I would never be like that nor would I ever put my children through the pain and agony I went through.

 

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Anonymous 8
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 I don't see anything wrong with underage drinking as long as you're smart about it. There are people that get smashed every night and pretty much live their whole lives in a constant hangover. I don't agree with that. But every once in a while, as long as you're not putting yourself or anyone else in danger, I really don't see why it's so bad.

Once, my friend and I wanted to go to a party down in Crescent City. Neither of us really knew the people that we were going to hang out with very well, so that made it a little scary. We had to take quite a few precautions to make our adventure very safe and secure.

Before we left, I called two of my friends and told them the address so they could come get us if anything happened. One of them also called me periodically throughout the night to make sure we were still okay.

One of the biggest problems we had was figuring out where we were going to sleep. We didn't want to stay at the party house since we didn't know the people, and I did not want to drive home that late at night. So we decided to stay the night at a hotel. We also decided to take a cab to and from the party. Not only did it keep us from getting lost, but it was safer than us trying to talk at one in the morning. And driving was not going to be an option, given how much alcohol we were planning on consuming. We also agreed on a time to leave so that neither of us would be stuck there longer than we wanted to be.

I know that most old people are against underage drinking and I can see where they're coming from. A lot of people don't plan and don't think about the consequences that could happen. I know a lot of girls that will go to parties with boys they don't even know and stay the night with them. Or they will try to drive home that same night while they are still all drunk and high. I think those are both really stupid choices and I'm sure that's why adults don't want us drinking.

But there are safe ways to go to parties and stuff. We had so much fun and nothing bad happen to us at all.

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Anonymous 9
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 I don't have a particular bad experience having to do with alcohol. However, I have seen and realized that alcohol does change people, ultimately for the worse. My Dad regularly drinks every night. He will drink around ten beers on average. He doesn't get smashed or anything, but I can definitely see a difference in him between daytime and nighttime.

First he gets really nice and happy. Sometimes he stays that way, sometimes he doesn't. Alcohol is a mood amplifier so if something makes him mad, he starts yelling a lot. He has never hit anyone, nor have I ever been afraid that he would. I just hate seeing him so mad. And to make things worse, he won't listen to anything people say when he has been drinking so I just have to leave him alone for awhile.

Then there's all the money that he spends on beer. He always has at least forty-eight beers in his fridge. I'm sure he spends thousands of dollars a year on it. That's a lot of money to be spending on something that slowly kills you and tears apart families. I can only imagine all of the useful things he could buy with the money he spends on beer.

I am afraid for my Dad that he is going to get cirrhosis of the liver, or some deadly disease like that. I've talked to my Dad about this, but he just says not to worry and that he will be fine. When you drink for thirty years straight with no end in sight, alcohol will destroy your body from the inside out.

These kinds of things are exactly what make me now want to drink alcohol. I don't want my family to be afraid of me or think down on me and I don't want to disappoint anyone. My biggest fear is that I'm going to end up the same way as my Dad but my wife won't be as nice and forgiving. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ended up losing my family due to alcohol.

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Anonymous 10
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 I'm a rare occurrence. Not many seventeen year olds can say they have never drank before. Granted, I have tried different kinds of alcohol before just to see what it tastes like, but I have never been drunk or really anywhere close. Alcohol doesn't appeal to me at all. The only thing I see when people drink is them acting stupid and making fools of themselves. It also scares me. I'm worried how I will personally react to alcohol. I don't like thinking that I won't be in control of what I am doing and saying. It's my personal choice; I avoid alcohol at all costs.

In my opinion, there are only two reasons teenagers drink: either they have real problems (home, school, whatever) that they are trying to get away from or because their friends are. Some people might disagree by saying that the reason they do it is because it's fun. And that might be true, but is it fun to go home and drink by yourself? No. It's fun to drink with your friends. I hate to use the term "peer pressure" because it's old, overused and kind of vague, but in reality that's what's happening. Only now you don't have to worry about being asked if you want a drink. You go with the intention of doing it before hand. You make the conscious choice. I try and avoid situations where I know drinking is going on. Just recently my best friend asked me if I wanted to drink with her and one other person. She told me that she thought I would be a lot more fun if I "loosened up" and had a drink. I said no but it was really hard. Harder than I thought it would be.

The truth is that Curry County's drinking problems are a lot worse than people think It sucks that there are kids in our community living in abusive, alcoholic homes. That shouldn't be happening but it is. As far as teens drinking, it's always happened and probably always will. Telling them to "just say no" is not going to solve the problem. It depends on the person and whether or not they are willing to hang out with different people or find somewhere else to hang out on Saturday. If they want to stop drinking and partying they have to remove them self from the situation that will cause them to do it and possibly even stop hanging out with the friends that encourage and join in the drinking. It's about the choice and you have to make your own.

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Anonymous 11
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Here we are again driving to find a hotel to stay at to hide from him for the night. The 4th of July fireworks illuminate the dark night sky. We keep the radio playing to drown out our silence to keep the words we all want to say inside.

This isn't the first time we've been down this road, and it surely won't be the last. My brother and I both realize this as we look at the rear view mirror and see my mother's expression. We share a glance and sigh, as my mother pulls into a driveway and turns around. I lean my head against the window and watch as we get closer to home.

As we drive back to our house, our mother tries to defend her boyfriend and what he has done to her; but they have no effect on me. I've heard the same excuses a hundred times before. I glance at my little sisters and see tears streaming down their puffy red cheeks. I've lost sympathy for my mom, and now I only hold animosity towards her. My brother and I have dealt with this since we were born, but to see my sisters go through the same thing breaks my heart. I'm upset that my mother allows him to have this control over her, and that she makes us go through this. For my sisters to grow up in this household with him around, makes me sick to my stomach, and the tears fall down harder.

We near the house as red and blue cop lights send their radiance through the somber night. My mom fixes her make-up as she gets ready to fool the cops for what seems like the hundredth time. My brother and I usher my sisters past the officers, my mom, and the man who has the innocent smile and blood on his knuckles. As we near the door my heart plummets as I hear her excuses fall out of her mouth and I know now that this will happen again. I want to yell at them and say this has happened before. That this is nothing compared to what has happened before; dislocated shoulders, broken arms, black eyes. I wish the officers would see past the lies, and see the bruises, cuts, and fear hiding behind her eyes. But like every other time, the cops will simply give him a warning, a mere slap on the wrist, and be on their way.

We push the front door open and tiptoe around the shattered photo frames and broken beer bottles. My sisters walk to their rooms as my brother gets a broom.

We finish cleaning near midnight and tacitly make our way to our rooms. I glance into the living room and see the sinner on the couch passed out with empty beer bottles on the floor. I turn the lights off and walk to my room. His rage is over - for tonight at least.

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Anonymous 12
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 My birth father was an alcoholic, among the worst kind, too, having another addiction to accompany this bad habit: he also abused steroids. Then again, addictions often go hand-in-hand with each other. This isn't about steroids, though, but giving you that extra piece of information may provide more insight to his behavior.

Although we only lived with him for the first two months of my life, having never actually known the man, and the only knowledge I have of him and his behavior is my mother's recollection of the experience, I feel it may have destroyed any chance of me ever fully trusting another man as a dad. It's true; alcohol abuse obliterates pretty much anyone's chance and ability of being anywhere near a functional parent.

He didn't know how to care for a child at all. One episode my mom has told me of took place when I was left at home to be cared for by my father while my mom went to work out. When she returned, she came into the scene of me sitting in my crib, crying dearly, while he sat in a chair, staring at me, with a beer in his hand, not knowing what to do.

On top of this episode of negligence, he would also throw objects at my mom, physically and mentally harm and degrade her while drunk, and simply abandon his role as a husband and father by taking only to himself and his own interests (drinking, working out, steroids, etc.).

Though we left this lifestyle rather quickly, as I said, when I was only two months old, having this in my history and being on my own blood affects and worries me greatly. I had my first taste of alcohol when I was two years old at an uncle's wedding because I was curious what all the adults were drinking and wanted to try it. Ever since, I've always had an interest in it. I didn't have another drop until I was thirteen, though, but drank every chance I got after than. Though I thought it was fun at the time, it has caused nothing but problems I've nearly died twice from alcohol, and even though I've vowed never to do it again, I'm always in fear of becoming an alcoholic because it's in my genes.

The greatest thing that keeps me from it is not only the experiences it's put me through and the people so dear to me who I know it would hurt, but the drive to be everything the man who aided in my creation was not; a real father. Alcohol destroys that possibility, and when I have kids, I want to be the greatest dad that I can, the father I never had.

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Kevin Bachler
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It was a Sunday morning. I opened the newspaper and the first article I saw shocked me. Four teenagers killed in a car accident. The driver was drunk. As I read the article, I head my sister coming out of her room crying. She entered the room and I asked her what was wrong. She saw the big picture in the article, points at it and tells me two of the four kids were Lisa and Anne, two high school friends of her. I was totally shocked.

You know when you read those articles in the newspapers about accidents and death you know you should be very upset about it and pay a lot of attention to it. But in fact it never really hits you. It is just some buy who died somewhere. It happens all the time. But this case was different.

There are these two girls you saw last Friday in school joking around, and now they are dead. That is hard to believe. But it says it here in black and white. Four teenagers dead. The driver was drunk. The driver was drunk? Yes, it is true that Lisa and Anne partied a lot. So there is a good possibility that they were with somebody drunk.

A couple of weeks later, my sister went to their funeral. On their headstones it said: 

Lisa Schmidt 1988-2006

Anne Lauser 1987-2006

They were kids. They did not have to much of life. Both of them were under 20 years old.

I am 17 and I am making my plans for life right now and none of these plans include dying at 19. When I think of them, I always think about them on their last Friday when they were joking around. Never about the picture of the accident in the newspaper. If the driver would have stayed sober I would see them joking around this Friday.

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Anonymous 14
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The first drink of alcohol I ever took was my seventh grade year, I am not ashamed of it, not am I proud. I may have gotten sick and gone to the hospital to get my stomach pumped and had a good story, but I didn't know it was the beginning of a horrible high school life.

I started out stealing it from my parent's stash in the cupboard, a shot here shot there. Something to do, you know? In Eighth grade I really thought I was pretty cool, doing that the other kids only talked about doing. I started smoking pot: the whole nine yards for a 13 or 14 year old. You don't take the time to sit back and think of what all this can become when you are drunk. All I was worried about was having fun.

I hit freshman year, and started going to parties with upperclassmen. Drinking had become a main priority for me because I had just been arrested for having pot and couldn't do that anymore. I don't think I had an addiction, yet. I drank my first beers today; it was a Natural Ice 16 ounce. I drank them one by one till I was sick all night. After that I said I would never drink again.

Sophomore year came around and my intent not to drink had been shot down. I would not call it peer pressure, but the fact that all my friends had just begun to dabble around with drugs and alcohol, it made me want to do it with them and have some more fun. So here I am drunk, sweating every time I even look at a drink of alcohol, and I began drinking out of hand, more often. This was the beginning to a very troublesome home life's, being hung over all the time and fighting with my parents. It's all horrible.

Junior year I became an alcoholic. I acquired a new love; its name is Jack Daniel's. I was drinking almost every night and getting hammered every weekend. I became indulged in a life of alcohol and drugs. The only thing I cared about was the next time I was going to get loaded. I began getting stomach aches all the time, and started throwing up blood when I drank till I got sick. Every time I looked at any alcohol I wanted it so bad, but it made me sick whenever I drank it. I had a really bad experience one night; I got too drunk and started throwing up a lot of blood. I passed out and broke my nose on a coffee table. After that I swore never to drink again.

It is now my senior year and I have ruined a good chunk of my life, including my high school career. Stomach ulcers now affect me almost daily and I have to think about wanting a drink constantly. I have been almost completely sober for a year now. With alcohol, I think the key is moderation. And I hope I have not damaged my body to a point I can never recover from.

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Anonymous 15
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 What a Night...

So one night after last year's graduation, I went to my buddy's house for a party. There were a bunch of people there, a good amount of alcohol, and other things. We started drinking a little bit, but there were a few people that had been there for a while that were already pretty hammered. We played video games, listened to music and just hung out not really doing too much. Then out of the blue, one of the guys suggested that we go drive and play in the mud in the truck he had just gotten.

So we all piled in, and I later realized that he was pretty smashed, but so was I so it didn't bother me too much. It was fun until he lost control of the truck and slammed into a tree, totaling his new ride. Thankfully no one was hurt but someone had the idea of walking back to my buddy's house and drinking some more. (Since we had all been through a pretty traumatic experience what better way to take the edge off, right?) So we went back and started drinking some hard stuff: whiskey, rum and vodka as opposed to just the beer that we started with.

Well now everyone was getting really drunk, and a couple guys' egos were rising along with their level of intoxication. They started passing threats back and forth, and soon we had our first fight of the night. About a half hour later, two of my good friends who had been best friends forever lay on each other breathing heavily and bleeding profusely. We put them on the couch and then passed out, after vomiting a couple of times.

Another one of my best friends was really drunk and trying to get lucky with his girlfriend, but she wasn't in the mood for it. She ended up leaving after slapping him and screaming in his face that she was done with him and his drinking. (This wasn't the first time this had happened.) I later ended up in bed half naked with a girl whom I had never really talked to or met at all, and who also happened to not be my girlfriend. I woke up during the night and ran to the bathroom to throw up. I walked out and passed out on the couch.

I woke up the next morning in a puddle of my own urine. I had gotten to drunk that I had wet myself during the night. I took some Tylenol but it seemed like there was nothing I could do to get ride of my fiendish headache. I called a ride home, and when I got there I dropped and didn't more for hours,. I later had to tell my girlfriend about what had happened and she didn't speak to me for two weeks. But what a night huh? Wanna drink sometime?

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Anonymous 16
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I remember when I was little, arguing with my mom at the grocery store. She would get mad at me because I didn't understand why we couldn't afford the food I wanted but she could buy her bottle of vodka. I have vague memories of my mom's drinking habits. They didn't seem that bad when I was young because I had such a happy childhood; but now that I think about it, I realize that she was an alcoholic.

For most people, when they are children they idolize their parents. Mom and dad can do no wrong, but as we grow older we realize they make mistakes too, just like everyone else. My mom is a great mother, she is always there for me, she takes my side most of the time and loves me very much, but everyone has their problems and one turn of events can change your life completely. When my dad died my mom became very depressed and last year, after almost ten years of sobriety, she started drinking again. Just a little at first, something to help with the pain and sadness but after a while she became addicted again.

During those ten years of sobriety she went to AA meetings where she made friends and met people who helped her quit. She still talks to those friends on the phone periodically and she is working on quitting again. The thing about being addicted to something is, you need to decide on your own terms that you want to quit. Being forced will only make things more difficult. What my mom is starting to realize is that the alcohol is only making her depression worse and now she wants to stop.

The fact that my mom drinks doesn't make her a bad person but I had a hard time getting used to the idea that she does. When she is "buzzed" we tend to argue, usually about pointless things. I just want to stay away from her and lay low when she is drinking because I know it is just the alcohol talking. I don't blame her because I know she is going through a lot of things. I also don't purely blame the alcohol because I know teenagers and parents argue. I love my mom very much and I know she will stop when she is ready.

Seeing her and other family members drink has had a big impact on me, the choices I will make in the future and my outlook on drinking. I don't condone drinking but it is not going to cloud my judgment of people. Most people drink for fun and that isn't going to stop me from being friends with them. I personally choose not to drink because I know what my family history is and I know what it can turn into.

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Mitch Pruden
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I guess I could say that alcohol had an impact on my life at one point in time. When I was in the first grade my mom met one of her friends from high school named Clay Nading while he was working a short distance from our house. One thing led to another and they were dating. I started to get to know this guy and he seemed nice, until I soon found out about his drinking problem.

Within two years he was drinking every day, and couldn't hold a job down because he was a piece of trash. I think the longest he had a job for was maybe two months., It didn't stop there; he became a frequent drug user. From pills to meth to marijuana he didn't care what it was. With all of this going on he was being physically abusive to my mom. My mom eventually became ill with breast cancer and had to quit her job. After her chemotherapy and radiation it started all over again. No matter how many times the cops were called nothing was done my mom would lie and say she had fallen or something along the lines of that in fear he would beat her again. Also law enforcement here is pathetic and is worried about curfew violations more than anything.

I think the biggest conflict that eventually led to my mom breaking up with him was when my oldest brother Alex was about sixteen years old and the time when he was in his room minding his own business when Clay started in on him. It was over something completely ridiculous. Alex had drank the last of the juice in the fridge and didn't make more. For some reason when Clay was all strung out that just ticked him off. He went crazy on Alex so he moved in with my grandparents and my brothers and I soon followed. After a year we moved back in with my mom. Clay is still to this day a habitual drug user and leading the same lifestyle and making outrageous false accusations against me and my family

If you look at the big picture alcohol has had a positive impact on my life, it taught me how to cope with problems and stress, and it made me realize that I would kill myself before I sunk to that kind of low.

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Marla Green
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I am one of only a few people in my high-school who has never tried alcohol. I have never had the desire to try alcohol. It helps that drinking has never been in my home. Also, that I do not hang out with people who drink or party.

When I was eight I probably could not have told you what alcohol was. Some people might call that sheltered, but I call it lucky. Alcohol was never in my home, my parents do not drink. In fact, both of my parents have never tried alcohol. (Unless you count the time my mom ordered a Diet Dr. Pepper and the waitress brought her a beer. As soon as she tasted what it was she spit it out.) From their example it has made me make it a goal to never taste alcohol.

The friends I hang out with make it easy to stay away from the party scene. None of us feel the need to party; we would rather rent a movie or go prank a friend.

Because I stay away from the party crowd, I think it has helped greatly in avoiding the peer pressure to drink. It does not bother me that I have never been invited to a party where alcohol was present, especially when I come to school on Monday and hear the stupid things people had done.

It is so sad to me how many kids give into peer pressure and go to parties and get drunk. I do not think there is a point to drinking; most alcohol smells and tastes bad anyways. Also it makes you do stupid things. I do not see the point behind something that makes you regret or feel embarrassed about what you did while you were under the influence of it.

I am glad I never grew up around alcohol. One day I will be able to look back at high-school and not be embarrassed by the stupid things I did. I am proud that I will be able to tell my kids that I have never tasted a single drop of alcohol.

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Anonymous 19
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 Did you know there were around 5,987,000 alcohol related car accidents in 2007? I was a part of those statistics that year, when I got into a car with a drunken driver. 41,049 people died that year in those car accidents. Luckily, I am not in those statistics.

I was staying the night at a friend's house. We decided to hang out with his cousin. So we did we didn't know he had planned on drinking though. Until he stopped at the liquor store. Then we went to his girlfriend's house and he invited some friends over.

After they were done drinking, I chose not to. It was around 11pm. I though we were going to stay at Stephanie his girlfriend's house. But Brad had a different plan. I had nowhere else to go so I had to get in. We were on the way back to my friend's house. Then his friend Robby pulled up beside us. He proceeded to ask Brad if he wanted to race. Brad said, yes. We began to accelerate We all started yelling at him to slow down, he didn't though. He finally decided to listen, and stomped on the brakes at way to fast a speed. He didn't see the gravel ahead of us. We hit the gravel and started to spin. In the process of this we knocked over a couple mail boxes and ran into a fence After that I don't remember much. We started to flip and the last thing I remember was the two square foot speaker that was sitting next to me on the seat fell towards me. Afterwards my friend told me it hit me in the head and knocked me out.

When I woke up the truck was lying with the passenger side on the pavement. Everything was broken, all the windows and most of the stuff inside We climbed out of the driver's side window. I was the last one out after Stephanie. During the accident she had almost ripped her pinkie finger off her hand. She got blood all over the truck and me getting out. Once we were out we panicked and ran back to Stephanie's house. The cops got called by someone who had seen the accident. The cops called Brad's house and his dad picked up. He told the cops where he thought we were. They showed up questioned and breathalyzed us. Brad got a ticket for driving under the influence and fleeing the scene. Stephanie and my friend both got tickets for minors in possession.

Ever since I have been scared to death every time I get into a car. Two years later it's still hard to get into a vehicle. I don't trust anyone's driving or mine anymore. Alcohol has made a huge impact on my life. I learned my lesson and will never get into a car with someone who has been drinking no matter what. I'm glad to be one of those surviving statistics. Not one of the 41,059 people who didn't survive alcohol related car accidents that year,.

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Heather Hunter
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The End of my Hero

I feel his grip hard pressed against my throat. Lifting me up as if gravity doesn't exist. "I told you to pick up your toys!" Still held up against the wall, I smell it upon his breath again. Alcohol. Of course daddy's been drinking again. "Why don't you ever listen? You never do anything right!  Everything was so much easier before you were born." I've learned long ago not to talk back.

Finally his grip releases and I'm violently thrust upon the floor. My head bounces off the ground, the force of the hit burning at my skull. All around goes dark and fades to black. I can't even make out his screams anymore. I can't see, it's all a dark blur.

All of a sudden I feel a powerful impact into my side. And then another. And another. Why is he doing this? He's supposed to love me. I'm daddy's little girl. Why do I not deserve my own daddy's love?

I hate when the day turns to night. This always happens. He's not the same when the sun is out. He loves me then. And he tells me it too. In those moments, I'm his world. But the night, the drinking, it changes him. He becomes this, this monster.

He's still kicking me as I lay motionless on the floor. I've become numb. Numb to it all. All I can feel now is the heat of tears caressing my cheeks. All I can hear now is the sound of my bones breaking. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him. Why does he make me hate him? In and out of consciousness, fading to and fro. Ringing in my ears increasing louder and louder. It's all unbearable. I let out on final scream as loud and powerful as possible, and I'm out.

After some time, unaware of how long, I reawoke to the sound of sirens. The view is all still a blur. I just know that daddy's gone and it's silent, less my deep breathing and those sirens. So which is it this time, ambulance or police? Oh just please anything to get me out of here, away from this. I'll never forget that night. Yes, I'd felt the wrath of daddy's drunken temper before, but that was the worst it had ever escalated. Daddy was taken away that night, and for good. I haven't heard much from him since. But no, my problems weren't all solved there. I'm still haunted by those attacks to this day. I have also learned though. I've learned to be tough, to stand up for myself, learned that I didn't really deserve any of that. Mostly I've learned of the horrible effects of alcohol. How it can tear a family apart. How it can elevate a temper to abuse. How it can make daddy's little girl feel so enraged with hate towards her hero. I still do wonder though, why did daddy have to choose his awful drinking habit over me?

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Anonymous 21
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"out of all of the people in my life, why did it have to be you, the one person that really means something to me, the one person I depended on more than anything. I'll never forget the hugs, the kisses, the fights, the laughs or the moments we spent together. I miss seeing your beautiful smile every day., I miss the silly nicknames you would make for me. I miss the comfort of always feeling safe with you. I never realized how important you were to me until that night. I'm sorry for not being there for you You know you will always have a place in my heart and over whatever distances there may be I send you my love." If Michael was here with us today this is what I would want him to know.

Michael Oliver was one very kind hearted person. He knew how to cheer anyone, no matter the circumstances. He taught me to not to take the little things personally. Michael was loved by many and there was nothing bad to be said about him. Michael the best beer pong playing, the best at quarters, and had a record time for key stands. He was always down to party. Our Friendship never changed no matter how much alcohol was consumed, and that's how I wanted it to stay.

The beginning of last summer the partying changed. People brought prescription pain killers to crush them and snort them. After painkillers, came ecstasy. Michael really got into that one. Cocaine was around for a while but never as popular considering the price and the comedown.

Last October 15th Michael went over to his friend Baileys apartment. One of Baileys friends showed up with 5 drops of acid dropped on Listerine strips. Michael, of course was down to try it and had a bad trip. It made him think about his life and that he was a horrible person. Later that night Michael left Baileys. They told him not to go but he didn't listen. No one had heard from Michael for the rest of the night. The next day everyone was looking for him. I didn't think much of it because I knew nothing could happen to him, but I was wrong. Around ten o'clock on October 16th, Michael's body was found off the highway face down in a creek. The death of Michael Oliver was one of the most tragic things that had happened in my entire life.

I've heard more people than I can count say things like "oh it's just alcohol" or "I drink but I wouldn't do drugs". From my experiences I have witnessed just about everyone I know go from just drinking to start smoking pot and a majority of them moved to harder drugs such as cocaine, ecstasy or acid. Alcohol is an opening to so many more curiosities, for your especially, I've seen and experienced more than I wish I had and when it all come down to it, it all started the first time that bottle touched his lips.

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Don't grow up to be your mom!

"Don't grow up to be your mom!" These were the words my dad said to me every chance he got. Growing up, my mom was never really there for me. She would always come home in the late hours of the night and sleep almost all of the next day. Had a very bad drinking problem.

By the time I turned seven, things had gotten worse. My parents were getting a divorce, and I had decided to move in with my dad. I figured it would be a better environment for me and I wouldn't have to deal with my mom's drinking problem I thought things were going very well but little did I know things would get way worse before they would get any better.

Eighth grade graduation was just around the corner, and I was very excited! I hadn't seen my mom in quite a long time, so I invited her I hope she had changed, I was wrong! She showed up to my graduation late and to make things even worse drunk out of her mind, She wasn't even able to watch me walk across the stage. After graduation I avoided her I didn't want my friends to know who she was. She had embarrassed me so much, and I wanted nothing to do with her.

By the time I started my first year of high school I decided that I would never drink because I have seen first hand what it can do to a family. Alcohol pretty much screwed up what should have been the best years of my life!

A year later we moved to Brookings. I was very excited because moving meant I would be able to get away from my mom altogether. Thing have been going great and I can say that I have not grown up to be my mom.

I have never really suffered any loss from being away from my mom. My step mom has been there for me whenever I have needed a mother figure to look up to and for that I am very thankful.

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The impact of alcohol on people can be substantial. Living as a teenager in Brookings has shown me that fact. I have seen many good people that were on the right track fall because they lacked the willpower to keep their minds clear. Alcohol abuse was one of the influences that fogged the minds of the broken, offering them a false chance to forget their bitter memories. But all they receive is another weight on their shoulders, a weight that gradually grows heavier until the bearer forces others to help carry it.

Unlike most people, I did not feel the need to abuse alcohol to avoid my echoes of the past. Those screams of agony know their rightful place in my mind. But then again, I was rarely pressured into drinking. People tend to think that only the worst people let alcohol destroy them, but even the best and brightest of our society can be turned into abominations.

Too many people have fallen to alcohol's seduction, but if it has changed one person in my life the most, it would be my mother. When may parents were still together, I remember how caring my mother was, always trying to help me and my brothers. I would never see my parents arguing, and for the most past they seemed happy. I won't go into detail, but when I was about eleven years old, my parents filed for a divorce. After they fought over custody in court, my brothers were separated from me and I noticed a change in my mother, she began to stay out later than usual and would look at me as if I was a curse.

Day after day, I would see her stumble into the house attempting to drink more than she could keep in her stomach. She kept this habit up for some time until at one point I stopped caring about whether she came home safely or drove her car off the road. At times her routine drowning in alcohol would frighten me, and being the child I was, the only thing I could do was run. I remember running through the doorway, moving as fast as I could for as long as possible. I ran until my veins turned to ash and my heart pumped sulfur, but I learned to ignore the pain. I also know that if I ran far enough, the screams would go away.

Eventually, I would be caught by police and returned to the monster that used to be my mother. And after a few months, my father found out what had been happening, so he took me with him to Oregon and I never saw my mother again. It may have been traumatic, but its only one more beast chained up in the depths of my mind. I managed to stay happy though; some people live to suffer and the rest keep looking forward to the next sunrise.

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R. J. Sims

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Alcoholism is a disease, not a condition. A plague, far worse than cancer. Destroys families, relations and anything it makes contact with inside and out. It inflicts regardless of age, color, race or religion. It wrecks and twists everything it contacts. Not just the user, everyone he or she loves goes down with them.

It is a lie, false momentary happiness in life. A mask on reality for those who week and can't face it. All this at the cost of what? The loss of lives once belonging to people whom we once cared for. Families tainted by the infection of alcoholism. Hanging by a thread, dysfunctional families limp along acting as if everything is ok. The violence, anger, and rage that comes from leaves families walking on egg shells. Just waiting, watching, and wondering what is going to happen next?

It feeds on the week searching for answers and approval of their peers. Actions taken irrationally made by the influence of alcohol not normally considered when normal. The solution for sadness and sorrows. Drown it out in solitude, alone in darkness. The never ending feeling of uncertainty. Always looking for closure. To blind to see that the so called solution is the problem.

The lowest of the low, the slum, the sleazes and the unwanted all share this habit of choice. Criminals, outlaws and the exiled all share this common trait. Once well respected people in the eyes of others. Empty pockets debts owed only to leave there name reduced to dirt. No better than the ground you and I walk on.

Everyone loves holding someone else's hair back. It's really cool to scam on chicks smelling like piss, vomit and booze. That's quiet the ladies man there. Hoping the bottle will up their chances of girls throwing themselves at their feet, that's really cool. All the actions an decisions poorly made that only from what people tell them since they can't recall it for themselves. The regret to fallow all this only to do it again.

The mothers left home alone in the middle of the night remembering when their baby's daddy will come home to fill their empty home. Leaves a family's name in filth and every things associated with it, ashamed to be closely related when your inflicted's name comes up. Kids at home to baby sit themeless. Late night screaming and yelling that wakes the whole house. Stumbling, bumbling, crashing and smashing everything in the house, watching in confusion, wondering what's wrong with daddy? That was my average childhood, what a way to grow up.

Never there to teach me to play ball, build a tree house, ride a bike, work on cars and the other things that dads normally do. The worst part is that I'm probably just like him, ins genetics. I'

I've seen the horrors of what alcohol can do to an inflicted and his family first hand, what happens when you take the wrong path in life. I live with it and am wiser for it. Never will I follow in my father footsteps.

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Anonymous 25

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Alcohol has an impact on everyone's lives that are around it. It's a kind of poison that people use these days to have fun, especially teens. I don't believe you need any kind of alcoholic beverage in your body in order to have fun. I can have the time of my life and be completely sober. I feel sorry for the people who can't.

I have been around alcohol many times because my friends drink. When I'm with my friends at a party, I usually stick around to be the designated driver. I sometimes feel like it's my responsibility to do so because I'm one of the only people that don't drink. If something every happened to one of my friends while they were intoxicated and I wasn't there to help them, I would feel terrible.

I choose not to drink because I know my body can't tolerate that kind of substance yet and I am not of age. I know I don't need to have alcohol in my system to have a good time with my friends. Drinking underage can only lead to negative circumstances. It can do harmful damage to my body, allow me to make bad decisions, and get me in trouble with the law. I am very involved in sports at school and I also have a part time job. If I chose to drink I could possibly be kicked off my team and lose my job as well. It's not worth it.

I think a major reason why teens choose to drink is because they are bored. Living in a small town doesn't have many fun things for teens to do on the weekends. Maybe if there was a place for teens to hang out on the weekends they wouldn't turn to drinking. Society today makes drinking look fun and cool and it attracts young teenagers. I don't think drinking would be such a problem if society didn't talk it up to be so cool and glamorous. Peer pressure also plays a big role when it comes to drinking. Kids tend to follow by example and do what their friends do. When my friends are telling me to drink it's hard to say no because I don't want to feel stupid or like a loser. When I'm really just being the bigger person and making good decisions for myself.

Everyone needs to know how to make decisions for themselves and learn how to say no and say it firmly. Everyone needs to have a voice and let it be heard or they will end up on the wrong path. Teens need to remember that they have a decision and they need to decide on their own what is best for them. I am proud of the decisions I have made about alcohol. I think all teens need to think twice about the next margarita they make or party they attend.

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